November 8, 2018


Had the biopsy on the second suspect area in the left breast today. It was done in an MRI machine. I can say with experience now that topping up my Ativan dose to 1.5 mg was a good move, along with choosing 60s Rock as the station on the headphones. I did rock of the 70s and 80s last time; no good. I also might have stolen some medical marijuana salve from someone who might live with me, but those rumors can't be confirmed.

The whole situation of needing to stay absolutely still on my stomach on a lumpy table for over an hour with my arms stretched above my head like Superman, sliding in and out of the cylindrical coffin that is the MRI machine, one breast dangling down through a portal where it was clamped and pierced with a needle that drew out samples that looked like little maggots (of course I wanted to see what they got)...well, it was kind of a lot, and I was glad for the drugs.

In addition to the drugs, I had my conjoined twin water bottle, some lip balm, and my emotional support lozenges. I couldn't take my water or any extra lip balm into the scan, but the beauty thing about emotional support lozenges is that they're allowed for most procedures. They're also strong, and they block out the scent of any alleged pot cream.

When shopping for an emotional support lozenge, I highly recommend Olbas Maximum Strength Sugar Free Cough Drop Lozenges. Yes, sugar free! They are wonderfully smooth, with pleasant mouthfeel. They are very strong! The menthol opens up your breathing passages, so you can be easily reminded that you can, indeed, still breathe, even if claustrophobic and stuffed into a cylindrical magnetic coffin. No need to worry about getting a tickle in your throat, setting off a coughing attack that would mean the test would need to start over. The tingling in your nose, mouth and throat makes it easier to stay mindful during your meditative breathing practices as you distract yourself from the massive needle driving into your breast, and whether whatever they find will ultimately kill you.

Black currant flavor! Highly recommended.