This update brought to you by Benson & Hedges Deluxe Ultralight Menthols (with contributions from Marlboro and American Spirit): the nodule on my lung is malignant.
The report is in my Mayo portal, and just in case I can't comprehend the findings, every section has a yellow rectangular stamp that says ABNORMAL. Case number: Abnormal. Report electronically signed by: Abnormal. Gross Description: Abnormal. Source: Abnormal. Interpretation: Abnormal.
"A. Lung, Left upper, fine needle aspiration (smears/core biopsy): Positive for malignancy. Metastatic hepatocellular carcinoma."
I texted Bob when I got the news. "It is cancer in lung. Just got results. No way to soft pedal it." I emailed him the report. He told me that this result was way better than the stress dreams he's been having, where the lung nodule is malignant but it's a totally new and different cancer that requires a whole separate treatment. Imagine what kind of fuckery that would be.
I was initially feeling a bit gut punched with the news, but, thanks to Bob, I realize that it could be even worse. So this is good news, actually. Regardless, it doesn't change the treatment. I guess we'll see if it affects the outcome.
The message immediately following the Mayo email was this Wirecutter link. Is it a sign?